Hi everyone. Today is my mom’s birthday and I want to celebrate her publicly in a way that I know she won’t be happy with. Sorry, Mom, but I want the world to know what you mean to me.
I can’t imagine what it is like to find out as a young mother that your child is going to have a lifelong disability. I’m sure that my mom’s first reaction and desire was for God to give it to her instead. But, that wasn’t His plan.
Her second reaction, I know, was to fix it, to find the cure. She dove into that effort head first and full-time. The hours of study, training, and work that she sacrificed were incalculable. Everything from starting a full-time ABA program in our home to multiple diet changes to supplement research to medications. She left no stone unturned, and still, God had a different plan for me. Not to say that any of that was wasted effort, but I still am living with autism.
The most important thing that my mom did for me was to love me unconditionally. Through it all, I always knew that my mom would be there, fighting for me with everything that she had—not because she needed me to be different but because she wanted me to be happy.
Today, I want my mom to know that my happiness is God’s plan also and thanks to her and my dad, I am happy. I wish that there were things about my life that were different. I don’t love my disability. But I know that God gave it to me for a reason. And I am so blessed that He also helped us find a way for me to communicate, because now I can do what I have always wanted the most: to make a difference somehow in someone else’s life by using my gifts and my strengths. What a blessing that is. I believe that is what God wants for all of us and often it is the challenges that He gives that allow us to do just that.
So, Mom, today on your birthday, just rest. And know that you are the perfect mom for me and that you did everything right. You were always there, you always showed love, you always protected, you taught me about God, you stimulated my mind and taught me how to learn in my own way, and you helped me find a way to express myself. It’s all I could have ever asked for. I love you.